i want to be normal.
I am so tired of anxiety, so tired of feeling tired and old. I look in the mirror and dont like what I see. I stay up late at night alone. I am always alone. Sometimes my yougest will sit with me in evening while he eats dinner. Thats about it. No friends, nothing. I feel like a chair just pushed in the corner. No one really wants to be with me. No one calls me. Not even my mom or sis. I had a disagreement with my aunt. I was told by het she dosnt want to hear anything about how I feel, so I havnt called her. I used to every week. But I think its because I told het something about my sis 3 months ago she didnt know. But there are to many family secrets and I am tired of holding them in. I am tired of lies.with my mom andsis and dad amd aunt. I just am tired of taking care of my mom and dads laundry and taking out their garbage evrty sunday. I am just wanting to take care of my family, my home. My sis never helps out. Shes always at the bar with hrt so called sisters. She nevet recognizes me as her sister. And with my sis drinking, i cant drink cause of being on meds.
No one undrrstands my bipolar. And its hard feeling alone. Its hard not being loved by people who are supposed to love you. I am just tired of the whole mess with my side of family. All I want is me, my huband and boys. Thats it.
No one undrrstands my bipolar. And its hard feeling alone. Its hard not being loved by people who are supposed to love you. I am just tired of the whole mess with my side of family. All I want is me, my huband and boys. Thats it.
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Ask your family if they are willing to go through a family councilling center if they are not then I would join a Detroit MI meetup.com group often times they have bookclubs and other public meetings. I am sorry you are lonely. I wish I had more money to go to a bar myself. Please don\'t feel trapped continue to seek hope and answers. If they are too stubborn then try to connect with high school buddies chat them up on facebook!
I am think abput getting on a antidepressants for winter, i get winter blues. My family wont go to counseling, no way. We do need it.i might also need group theraphy. I need to ask doctor.
My son is bipolar. He is doing very well now. Stays on his meds. When we were going thru hell with him, we got very involved with NAMI. National Alliance of the Mentally Ill. Support groups for both the patient and the caregivers. Do you have any groups around you?
They are far away from where I live. There is a bipolar/anxiety group that meetsonly twice a month, but what they want you to do is .get involved as like fund raising, and I don\'t need that right now. I need probably group theraphy, so I know of people I can talk to in person. That way I can connect better,
I have two sons ..one has the bipolar ..and when we figured out there was realy somthing wrong ...we ..all went to ...a phicatrist ..once he was diginost ....he was on meds for just over a year ....and was able to get off the meds ...and ..his wife and two daughters ..will tell him if he is ..not being his self and he does what he needes to do to .get back ware he schould be .....my other son ......refuses to get help does not think he has anything wrong ....and is afraid of meds .....and that saddens me ...because it causes hard ships in his life .............you are right you don\'t need anything that is going to put more pressure on you ..like the fund raising ............but you do need your husband and children to go in with you ...to the phicitrist ...or if you have a very good counclor .....so they can learn about bipolar ...and ..how it is affecting you ...so they can learn what they are doing that is not helping you ...and what will help you .....I do understand that you want to stay up late ...but with bipolar it is better if you set a time to go to bed at night and stick with it ..and try and get us at the same time each morning .......and it is important what you eat .....nothing prosesed ....nothing artificial ......watch your sugar and salt .....fruit jucies are very high in sugar so you are better off to eat the fruit ....and it is better for your system ...........remove your self from abucive ..or ...situations that make you ...to uncomfortable ....communication ...helps to ....and meds if you need then ....because of my depreshion ...if I am dowen I look in the mirror and I don\'t like what is see I think I am ugly but if I am feeling better and I look in the mirror ...I think I don\'t look to bad ...but I don\'t want to look for to long ..because I am afraid ..it will Chang ............also looking in the mirror ...can reflect back to you ..things in your past not dealt with ....on a sibconchis leaval ....and that again you won\'t like what you see ......and also ..if you are not happy in your life ...all those things you see in the mirror ....with out realizing it ....because it all ..is ..just ...mashed together ....this is the time you need to look after you .....you don\'t need to hold those Cecreats .....ant longer ....get them out of you .....ware ever you feel safe doing it ..in here in your jurnal ...on ds bord ..to a counclor ....or even if you need to see a phicitrist ....what ever it takes ...all that pain has to come out ....if you ..want to heal ....you will still have the bipolar but it schould be easer to look after ..once you get all that out ....we were not built to keep that all in .....it is ok to say ..at this time ..all I can do is look after my self ..and my family ...who are still at home ....and it is ok to ask them to go to learn about bipolar .....so you need to take very good care of your self ...if you like you can talk to me ..just message me ....I am not on ds to much but I do read my messages ......sending you my love and a big hug ....God bless