Thanks all. Friggin nightmares all night last couple nights and a lot of unsummoned shit surfacing. I just need to focus on trusting people, faith in God, and courage because I am scared shitless right now. Going to just let it be what it is and be as honest, open-minded, and willing as I can be.
I have decided to drive myself there, so that I can leave some extra shit in the car and honestly, weird, but I want the alone time and I don\'t want to worry about h seeing me break down on the way there or once I arrive. Just need to do this alone. He is on my shit list anyway - not sure he will come out with very many points on the other end of this journey.
So grateful for everything and all the people who led me to this. Just hope it is all I imagine it to be.
I am an emotional wreck, but am headed out the door now. Sorry I do not have the chance to hug you all. Just know that I am SO incredibly grateful for the support. I hope I am a stronger positive presence when I return.
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I know this ain\'t facebook, but \"Like\" I think you\'re on your way!
A great big giant step to healing and longterm recovery. Doesn\'t matter what you pack or forget to pack -- you are ready!
....but bring a warm pair of jammies
Thanks all. Friggin nightmares all night last couple nights and a lot of unsummoned shit surfacing. I just need to focus on trusting people, faith in God, and courage because I am scared shitless right now. Going to just let it be what it is and be as honest, open-minded, and willing as I can be.
I have decided to drive myself there, so that I can leave some extra shit in the car and honestly, weird, but I want the alone time and I don\'t want to worry about h seeing me break down on the way there or once I arrive. Just need to do this alone. He is on my shit list anyway - not sure he will come out with very many points on the other end of this journey.
So grateful for everything and all the people who led me to this. Just hope it is all I imagine it to be.
I just know you\'re going to do great. We\'ll all be thinking of you and looking forward to hearing about your fabulous experience on the other end.
I hope you plan on giving them your car keys.... don\'t give yourself an option to leave early, \'k?
love and hugs!
I am an emotional wreck, but am headed out the door now. Sorry I do not have the chance to hug you all. Just know that I am SO incredibly grateful for the support. I hope I am a stronger positive presence when I return.
Peace, ease, and cheese. xo