i want some good news!!!

i have been nothing but positive and determined throughout my illness and have refused to allow it to take control and bring me down.  but this god damn thing can be sooooooooo frustrating and could easily bring a person down.i would really like some good news, just to perk me up a bit cos right now, i really feel i need it.on monday, my 15 yr old son was dx with hep c.  that was heartbreaking and he needed much quality time and help to give him an understanding of the disease and what he may or may not have to face along with lotsa reassurance and hugs.  and you'll all be pleased to know that he's getting his head round it really well and is ready to fight.  thats my boy!!!today i go for a routine scan and find out that my spleen is not just enlarged but is massive and that i have not one or two but lotsa of gall stones, that my liver was what they would expect to look like for a stage 6 liver although they would have prefered it to be a bit smoother, that a couple of lil veins had burst in my abdo and then they talked about something else which i didnt quite catch and suggested "we better check the lymph nodes if thats the case". alarm bells are not ringing as such yet cos i have learnt to wait for the answers from the proper ppl, but i certainly dont like the sound of what they saw.  still i only have to wait til friday cos i'm back to see my hepatologist then and i guess all will be revealed then.  if they need to operate on spleen or gall bladder then i will have to come off tx, but then again, they prolly cant operate cos all my bloods are down and i know they like the platelets to be at least 100 to be cleared for surgery.  so hopefully they wont take me off tx.  hopefully they will let me continue as this is my only chance and hopefully the thing they saw that they wanted to also check the lymph nodes for is not the dreaded c.  but again, we will see.  friday will tell all.more than ever now i need to hang around to help my son through his battle and i pray that god will allow this.i am still v positive cos i believe this is the only way to be in order to get a positive outcome and i am more determined than ever to see this thing through so i can help my son, but i cannot help but worry that i may not have the time.  i hope and pray that friday will, for once, bring good news my way and give me fresh inspiration to fight even harder.thanks for listening my wonderful friends:)  and sorry to be venting once again.luv yax