I Want a Friend

    I want a friend. I feel like I have no one. I went on a website to try to meet people, but all they want to do is get in my pants. Surprise, surprise. I know I hang around a lot of boys, but it doesn't mean I'm sleeping with all of them. Hell, even girls have been trying. No one ever wants to be just friends. I have learned to accept the fact that my life is meaningless. I have not and will never contribute anything to society. I want to give up and quit, but then I think of the two people I would be hurting. Is it bad that my boyfriend would rather be with his friends all day than with me? Should I be insulted? All I want is an hour a day on the phone and a "Goodbye/brb" in text if necessary. Is that asking too much? I don't want to be a burden like past relationships said I was. I only want to be loved.
 
My best friend, the person who was with me through years of physical bullying, no longer wants to be my friend. She spends all day with her stupid new boyfriend. I try to talk to her, but she's too busy with her "daddy". My other friends all started dating and breaking up and now, I'm all alone. I only want a friend. Mom wants me to go out and meet people. She wants me to leave...but, I can't. I'm too tired and scared. I want help.