i wanna die young
i want to die young because im fed up with myself and im tired of life's BS. i feel like all my life no one gave a crap about me and my mom would say discouraging things to me like "u have been in a car for almost 20 years. now u r 18 and if u havent learned anything, then something is wrong with you." and i feel im too insecure to be with friends or even a lover. they eventually get sick of me and then leave me. and i feel my dad always treat me as if i am his little girl. its like too sweet... too sugarcoated. i dont wanna live past 40. i feel i have had enough time. i think i am suicidal.
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I hope you change your mind! I know these things are very stressful. You are not alone. I was suicidal a lot of times in my life. I tied it a few times and went to hospital. I am glad to be alive now. In my teens I was confused about a lot of stuff. Now I am older and just roll with the punches. I take antidepressants because i had major depression. They help me. The suicidal thoughts are gone.
Do you have people you can talk to close to you? You need positive people to talk to. The negative stuff just drags anybody down. You are not alone.
If you start to believe the negative things people tell you, you will feel bad about yourself. Try to think good things about yourself. I do not think you are a bad person. Please be strong.