i wanna cut or die!!!!!!!!!!!

so there was a meeting today for all the students who want to go into the ITP program......i'll just leave it at ITP.....SO the teachers was saying that you need a B average and for every C in these classes you need na A and that one of the classes in the spring-which i wanna take-that your grade in that class will determine if this is the right class for you......if i get 2 C's this semester i can handle that....but if i get any more C's or if i get a bad grade in that specific class then i feel like i'll fail at life!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sooooo anxious!!!!!!!!! i just wanan cut and release all this stress, anxiety and worry.........or just kill myself and leave everything and leave everything and just leave and it'd all be okay......i just wanna cut or die!!!!!!!