I've recovered through, meditation, helful peeps,

THat even if they didn't remember, I knew I would call them still on theirs. To proove I had what it took I said, " I will see how the night goes, and then decide, just to go home. Would it be ok and better if I was allowed to be dismissed from services again, and go to mine? I love all of you, Thanks. Night. Bye. I called my sister on her wedding first year anniversary, and will remember every year. Because she didn't make me a girl so I didn't go. I said, it wasn't to hurt you, but I think you should seek psyciatriac help other than anything I can think of...I've never been...there?
 
I sit in a brightly light peceful nature setting. Bright windows, a basement, a play room. Romp. Play young ones play. I sat in meditation for over three adn a half hours. Just sitting on a bentch and cried in front of 45 people. They just stood by watching. Making sure I am here with members. Very intrested in what my Gay minister who is marrying his partner soon, introdouced himself to my Randy. HE and I are sisters, I love his wife sometimes. I love him all the time. So I go.I go to keep Randy safe.
"I am not a stranger to this church boys, go back inside to be with the adults" I was trained.