I've decided to try

I have decided to try and talk to my therapist about trying to process some of the abuse the sexual and th physical and maybe even a little of the mental. I know it willl be hard and it will take some time to go through it and It might even be scary. Thinking about telling my decision to my friend/roommate.  She has been through alot of the same things as I have maybe she would want to work on it together. to give each other support in processing it.  I know the sexually abuse has caused alot of my problem mentally and so has the physical abuse.  I had my first hallucination when I was 4 years old. It is when I got the scariest hallucination I have ever had and still have to this day It is a man he has red eyes and he watches everything I do.  He is very critical of me always puts me down and makes me feel awful. He us always there.  If I could make him go away I would love it.  I can't stand him watching me all the time.  and HE is always putting me down and saying negative things to me and about me.  Any way enough about that I am really scared about trying to work through all this but maybe it will help and maybe the depression won't be so bad if I process some of this. I hope it makes a difference for the better for me.