I've been missing from not just this world, but the real world too.
I know I haven't logged on in awhile. I just couldn't do it. I wanted to provide support to other women here, and hopefully gain some in return but I couldn't do that either. I've just spent the most part being in bed most days, trying to find a job, cleaning house, playing games on my phone, watching endless amounts of TV.
Just anything to avoid thinking about the hole in my heart.
Lucky for me it's Easter soon and next week I'll be leaving for Malaysia where hopefully I can finally take a break from the life I'm living right now. The life, that just won't give me a break. I think about my life a lot you know, the whole timeline. I get tired, just reliving the memories. Doesn't sound like a good sign so this trip couldn't have come sooner.
I'm sorry I'm such a negative Nancy. But the reality can be too hard to absorb sometimes. Little at a time, one day at a time.
I do hope for dreams come true for everyone here in DS and although I do not visit as often anymore (until I'm better anyway) I just wanted to say that I'm thinking of everyone on here and pray for love and happiness for all of you.
Just anything to avoid thinking about the hole in my heart.
Lucky for me it's Easter soon and next week I'll be leaving for Malaysia where hopefully I can finally take a break from the life I'm living right now. The life, that just won't give me a break. I think about my life a lot you know, the whole timeline. I get tired, just reliving the memories. Doesn't sound like a good sign so this trip couldn't have come sooner.
I'm sorry I'm such a negative Nancy. But the reality can be too hard to absorb sometimes. Little at a time, one day at a time.
I do hope for dreams come true for everyone here in DS and although I do not visit as often anymore (until I'm better anyway) I just wanted to say that I'm thinking of everyone on here and pray for love and happiness for all of you.
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I\'ve been thinking of you often, I\'m so sorry that you\'re hurting. I can\'t imagine how your heart feels. I totally understand needing a break - it\'s so, so hard to see other people celebrating babies when this is supposed to be your safe place.
I hope your trip helps to clear your head so you can start to heal. xoxo
Hi Hon. Just take care of you! I hope you enjoy your trip and that it helps you restart. Reality comes in waves. I catch myself in moments doing better and then I don\'t know which is more incredible - that this happened or that I can function even though it happened. Hugs!
I\'m glad you checked in love. I hope your trip allows your heart to heal a little. Thinking of you.
So nice to hear from you. It\'s completely understandable that you take the time you need to heal yourself. Protect your heart. Praying for you!
Take care of you love! I hope the trip is fun and keeps you busy! I also enjoy taking a holiday after a miscarriage. After my most devastating I went to Japan. Had a great week and felt refreshed and relaxed. I hope you can achieve that there.