I\'ve been kidnapped by a family of homophobes

OK< I am in Texas, Dallas to be exact. I want to say I value my life as it is. My little house and my dog and every little simple thing that is familiar to me. In Dallas. 12 hrs in a car with 3  family members, 2 fluffy dogs , and a me in a sub compact.Tonight I took a room in a motel a couple miles away. I have family in the hotel next door so it worked well.My mother was not happy. I do not get it .I am a very independent 42 yr old man that has not taken anything or help from my parents from the age of 18. When I put myself in a vulnerable position, having no car in suberban hell in the middle of the stcks, not in Dallas but out in the country.It seems my mother takes all the power and control that she can take.I could not listen to any more racist and homophobic slams.Anyway I am now enjoying a few hours of freedom before I go back and have to assert myself once more about why do I not want to go to catholic church with my parents or southern Baptist church with my sis and her husband.Both newly saved and the family (parents)angry about it.I will be in Springfield, Il.by tuesday.Yeah. to start my temp job.   Okay before I left I had a great session with my therapist about my new possible relationship with Brian.It was very good.I am not a man that cries much but that man,my therapist, I do not know what he said but it just sent me into 30 seconds of tears which is a lot for me.It felt good.I let go of all of my hopes and dreams a few years ago.My last depression made me think it was good enough just to get by, and I guess now that I think about it, I stopped thinking on some level that my hope and dreams were no longer attainable.When he said that I could have them, and I somewhat believed him it made me cry.   I have not had internet for days, I guess it is now another attachment in a life that I have worked very hard to keep simple and attachment free.I will keep it happily I think. Missed everyone on DS.All for now hope I have access soon.I will attach pics of trip if I can.