I've Been Gone Awhile

It's been more than a year- almost two- since I posted.  To be honest I had all but forgotten my info for the site.  It's funny how I received an e-mail notification today when I needed it.  It's the forst notification I've gotten in a very long time.  I've been dealing with depression a lot more lately.  I've been without income and suffering more and more from chronic pain since January 2016. I'm supposed to be trying to find a job but I hurt so bad most days,  I can hardly walk from my bedroom to my bathroom.  I've moved 2 1/2 hours away from where I was,  my dad died a week before Thanksgiving,  and I couldn't afford Christmas for my kids.  Now the church I attend is about to close down and the pastor is moving to GA (we live in MS).  He wants us to move too,  but right now we can't even afford to move out of this house we're in.  The roof leaks and we've had to fix pipes and pay outrageous water bills several times.  The landlord won't fix anything but expects his rent like clockwork.  Most of the people around only come around when they want something.  I can't ask any of them to help me when I need help.  My car broke down some months ago and even though I never complained about taking people places or letting people use my vehicle, I can't get these same people who have cars to take me to the grocery store twice a month and to pay my bills once a month.   Then they say they love me.  I'm just tired.  I'm in pain,  I'm frustrated,  and it's pulling me into depression.  I'm just done. On the a brighter note,  I'm working on my relationship with God.  I feel like maybe this will help me deal with some of the issues in my life.