I trying to keep my head above water

Hello my friends whom care to read. I have some really good news....I got accepted into college. I was so shock and over whelmed with joy. I start next year Jan 12...The peolpe I told gave me an expected response. No one was really happy but me and my Son...and a couple of others,but I'm sure I'll be ok. I'm in the process or trying to get into the process of leaving a relationship I've been in for 9yrs. It hurts but I'm sure as time goes by and I keep myself busy raising my son, working and going to school, things will ease up...I hope. I just tired of no support emotinal,mental & physical from him. I mean when you have a strong person in your life and you both make each otehr strong, there nothing you can't do together or get over together. But when you have one pulling to move up and the other one just hanging or either has got comfortable in just that area then it's time to go. It hurts..I mean really hurts becasue I know my Baby Boy is going miss his daddy. He always getting his baby photo album and looking at pictures of him and his daddy when he was a newborn, it's not fair to him. I know once I leave, his father is not going to be active in his life at all. That's one of the few reasons that scares me. Now I'm getting ready to go to school and just might have to move back to my second home town...which is no problem. I just kinda want to kick myself in the a$$ for putting up with his sh!t this long and now that my Son is old enough to some what understand,this could hurt him. Like I said he want be there for my Son, this I'm almost certain.I've been praying and asking god to give me a sign on what to do. If he is giving me signs either I don't get it or I just don't understand enough to get it.But I'm going to keep praying and I hope for the best for me and my Son.  Till we talk againChelle