I told the doctor I think id rather stop fighting this

He didn't seem to care. All the joint pains were bad. The lung problems were knocking me down. But the treatment so far has made me feel less of a man than I ever have. I want to poke my feeble chest out and  go like a man if its time. Daily Strength is this sites name. For me it seems wallowing in my weakness for lack of strength. And the reality that any minute a clot or whatever its can cause all this fight to be in vein.lol