I told him I wasnt coming over tonight..
Well it is Saturday, and today is the day that I am supposed to go over to my significant others house to spend the weekend with him. Well, I just emailed him and told him I wasnt coming over and I needed some space. I know email is the weak way to do it, but I am in a weak state when it comes to him and I new if I called or texted I would have succombed and gone over to see him.
I havent even checked the email to see his response yet. My daughter didnt want to go over there this weekend, and when he took us out to dinner on Thurday evening, I cringed everytime he touched me, and gave me those puppy dog eyes, or wanted me to say lovie wuvie, etc, etc, etc... The neediness that he has had so long has made being with him unbearable, I really just dont think I can do it anymore.
Plus, I had an epiphany. My sister is getting married, moving on and settling down, and I looked at my life, and was like, wow... she is moving forward and I am in the same place. If I dont do something I will always be here doing the same thing until the day I die. I dont want to be at my house, and him at his house, and going over there on the weekends and dreading it. I dont want to marry him...
So that is where I am at right now, I guess I will have to see how everything unfolds.
I havent even checked the email to see his response yet. My daughter didnt want to go over there this weekend, and when he took us out to dinner on Thurday evening, I cringed everytime he touched me, and gave me those puppy dog eyes, or wanted me to say lovie wuvie, etc, etc, etc... The neediness that he has had so long has made being with him unbearable, I really just dont think I can do it anymore.
Plus, I had an epiphany. My sister is getting married, moving on and settling down, and I looked at my life, and was like, wow... she is moving forward and I am in the same place. If I dont do something I will always be here doing the same thing until the day I die. I dont want to be at my house, and him at his house, and going over there on the weekends and dreading it. I dont want to marry him...
So that is where I am at right now, I guess I will have to see how everything unfolds.
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Hey, you know what? The email was just fine, don\'t worry about it. If that\'s what you needed to do for yourself, then good for you. I know, all too well, how manipulative these guys can get, and you\'re right, if you did text or call, he would have talked (or guilted) you into going out. You did the right thing.
There are sometimes I just don\'t have the energy to answer the phone or whatever, because I know what I\'m in for. If you want to be Emily post and have perfect manners, then fine, but if you don\'t want to talk to an emotional vampire, giving yourself permission is what\'s in order.
Sounds like you\'re moving right ahead to me. Just the fact that you\'re here, you see what you see, and you taking care of yourself is good stuff in the right direction.
It will work out.. in the meantime, stay present, and be nice to yourself.