I thought i was over it.

I really thought i was getting there as the last coule of weeks ive been so much stronger.When i thought about him i just cringed and haventĀ  cried for a long while.But the last couple of days ive been really down and missing him.He called or son today to ask what he wanted for christmas.So i suppose he will be big daddy and get them expensive presents knowing im finding things hard with money.He probably feels guilty for the way he has treated them.

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jwalkr
jwalkr

I just think it\'s the time of year. We all seem to be a mess. I for one will be very happy to have this year over with, even if I see it in alone!
deleted_user
deleted_user

You don\'t I repeat don\'t miss him...Remember that letter I sent last week. I would be all wrong and you would have to start all over...I don\'t think I could do that. I \'m just not strong enough I know what you mean. The image of him the perfect him. But he is flawed..and will continue to be. He doesn\'t want to change and that is clear. Perhaps one day..but you will be in a diferent place. \"Hugs...Cath\"
deleted_user
deleted_user

Wow, it must be the upcoming holidays that are making the dad\'s feel a little guilty, I guess. My ex \"text\" message him to ask him what he wanted for Christmas. It sounds like the same person - your ex and mine LOL! Hang in there! I\'m in a bad place too with the money situation. I can relate.