I thought i was over it.

I really thought i was getting there as the last coule of weeks ive been so much stronger.When i thought about him i just cringed and havent  cried for a long while.But the last couple of days ive been really down and missing him.He called or son today to ask what he wanted for christmas.So i suppose he will be big daddy and get them expensive presents knowing im finding things hard with money.He probably feels guilty for the way he has treated them.