I think it is finally happening
Think it finally happening, I think I am starting to accept what is happening to me, and living at the hospital. When I got here I kept having a dream. I would go up to all of the staff and tell them that I did not need to be here.
Today when I was being fed I was thinking why are they feding me I can do this myself and then it hit me that I could not do it myself. I realized that I really do not believe that I am as bad as I am. I think I have taken the first step on the road to acceptance.
I was talking to my Hubby today and he has had a good day as well he is not as upset as he was. For months we did not know if I would live. Our future involed the next hr the next day. Now we are planning what to do together. The hospital lets me go out when I want to, I can get my meds and go, as long as I come back to sleep here.
We are in a lovely spot, close to the water, the sail boats are still out. Right now we are having a great fall. The leaves are just starting to turn, we have warm sunny days and cool nights.
Yesterday my Hubby and I sat outside in the shade, my feet in his lap and we just talked about normal things, just like we used to. We did not talk about illness or what I could do or not do. We were just a married couple. We have not done that for over a year.
It feels like there is still some good left in life
Today when I was being fed I was thinking why are they feding me I can do this myself and then it hit me that I could not do it myself. I realized that I really do not believe that I am as bad as I am. I think I have taken the first step on the road to acceptance.
I was talking to my Hubby today and he has had a good day as well he is not as upset as he was. For months we did not know if I would live. Our future involed the next hr the next day. Now we are planning what to do together. The hospital lets me go out when I want to, I can get my meds and go, as long as I come back to sleep here.
We are in a lovely spot, close to the water, the sail boats are still out. Right now we are having a great fall. The leaves are just starting to turn, we have warm sunny days and cool nights.
Yesterday my Hubby and I sat outside in the shade, my feet in his lap and we just talked about normal things, just like we used to. We did not talk about illness or what I could do or not do. We were just a married couple. We have not done that for over a year.
It feels like there is still some good left in life
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