I think I am loosing it

I have had so many problems with my sister, she is really truly nuts!
To make it worse, getting a BFN this month really sent me into a massive tail spin, to the point that I smashed a cup in sheer anger and frustration. I just started thinking about everything. About how angry the problems with my sister made me, about how unfair it is that I lost my baby, how I just can't get pregnant and I snapped! I swear I just suddenly saw black and then heard this almighty smash and then my husband came running down to see me. I was just standing there holding my head the cup all over the floor about a metre away from me... this is the worse I have ever been, it was like I was not in control of myself at all.

 
I am still trying to recover from it all today; it just all feels so hopeless...
 

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I am so sorry. I wish I could be there to wrap my arms around you. Not that long ago I went through a similar situation and I am not one to break things like that. DF was shocked and looked at me not sure what to do. I exploded with more pain imaginable. You are human and not expected to keep it all inside. I know it feels hopeless, but it is not. I can\'t say what is ahead for you, for me or for any of us, but there are days that do not hurt the way you are hurting right now. {{{{HUG}}}
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I am so sorry you are feeling so low! I hate that any of us have to ever face such gut wrenching pain! You have been through a lot. I wish there were words that could make the pain, the confusion & the despair disappear.
Know that you are not alone, keep reaching out & take one breath at a time.
Sending you love & hugs!