I talked to him agin

I talked to him again tonight   it was okay  no chemistry  just because he makes me smile  doesnt  mean there is any kind of chemistry.  I think I am just beign cautious  I have been  hurt so many times by fakes,sleze,and just friends friend zoned so I have no right to beign happy  with someone because   I kind of like him it will just end in dissapointment any way  but still  I guess  I have  a small shred  of  hope a very tiny slither that  maybe he actally  does feel something  for me,but then   I look in the mirror and  I am like you got to be kidding yourself no guy epecially  a guy that looks like that  can not be nothing to me but a fake,or sleze,or like I said  Friend Zone lol I would be lucky to have a singal guy   friend zone  me that is just wanting  someone to be a friend to me. who am I kidding the guy I been friends with for over four years still only text me on the rare occasion  he remembers I exist he don't even  check out my pages.  sigh  beign alone sucks wish I had at least some  real friends