I still miss her
I Just want you all to know that I still mourn for my wife. The only time when my emotions hit me is when I am around friends and family that loved her. Their sad energy hits me and emotions flood in. I try to stay away from them. I just want you all to know that you will 1 day find joy again. For a long time I was mad at God. First for taking my mother and then for taking my wife. I still have my own religion. I will never base my beliefs on what others say is or will be for I already know my fate. Just know that u are not alone. Someone will always love you and I hope you find peace in what I shared.
Some of u may think that I might just be crazy and I don't argue that I am not a little because of all the horrible events that took place in the past 8 months. I will tell you that I never heard voices or had any delusions. If you have any bad things to say please keep it to yourself. This took me all day to write. Every second that I wasn't taking care of my father I was here typing. I am tired and exhausted and I think I may go to bed.
I hope that some of you will read You all have a special place in my heart
Some of u may think that I might just be crazy and I don't argue that I am not a little because of all the horrible events that took place in the past 8 months. I will tell you that I never heard voices or had any delusions. If you have any bad things to say please keep it to yourself. This took me all day to write. Every second that I wasn't taking care of my father I was here typing. I am tired and exhausted and I think I may go to bed.
I hope that some of you will read You all have a special place in my heart
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well those people will always stir memories of her as your memories of them include her. Sadly that won\'t ever change it will just get easier in time
Thanks for sharing your heart Drew. I hope you will continue to find healing. Get some rest. I know writing things like that out is exhausting. Hang in there!
you are so blesed to have had that experance with your wife coming to you after she pased it is real you know it is real .......no mater what eneyone else says ...............my brother pased away and i was having a hard time and one day he came to me and he had mesages for me to tell to all of the family and cousions ................he let me have a little look into heaven there were other people there but i was not able to see them they just looked black siluets to me and he brought a group of people with him and some of those mesages were from these people .......there was no talking everything was just instantly put into my mind i was at my sons weading standing up when this hapened there is no such thing as time as we know it there everything is instantanious i thought i had been there with him for a while but it all pased in a mater of seconds but the feeling was unbeliveable and it stayed with me untill i gave everyone there mesage and when i thought i was finished the feeling hadent gone so i knew someone didnt get there masage so i knew it was my sister that didnt tell her husband so i caled her and she tried t tell me no and i told her i knew she hadent told her husband and she said her husband didnt belive in that stuf and i said i had to give him his masage so i got her to put him on the phone because they lived to far away to do it in person and i gave him his masage and the fealing left me ..................i mised that feeling ..............your wife is looking after you and always will and she wants you to be happy and heal my brother has come to me several times since but now has stoped since i am ok now ........................thankyou for shairing your storie ..............lisen to your dream lisen to your wife belive always ..............god bless .................
Hey bud! I understand! When I lost my father, I too was mad at God. Time and prayer go a long ways in healing us, sure, we always miss them, but it will get easier for you...hang in there!