I Still Have Issues With The Planes...!
Well, I just got back home from a nice and cold 2.5 mile night time walk, it was nice, it felt good to be outside and seeing the cars drive by, seeing a few people walking the streets, one was walking his dog, it was nice to see that in light of some of my recent troubles that life still does go on! Just because someone made the choice to leave me it didn't make the city of Sacramento and the world come to a grinding stop! Tonight it felt good to see things moving, see people walking and hear the sounds that make up the night time around here.
But as my walk was coming to an end, and I grabbed my gate clicker to let myself in through the main security gate, I was curious as to what time I was finishing my walk, the clock of my phone said it was 12:06am, no problem, I'm tired, I'm feeling good, time to get back inside and eat a little something and go to bed. But as I was walking through the parking lot of the property I heard that familiar rumbling roar on the horizon, it was the last and final plane of the night being launched out of Sacramento International Airport. I slowed down to look at it as it came close, as to fly over my home and head Eastward, I had a mental "slip up " moment, for a couple minutes as this plane got closer, I thought back to the early morning of August-4th, I again remembered that my ex-faince boarded a plane and at 12:08am flew the last flight out of the Airport, the same flight schedule as the plane I was watching in the sky tonight, my mind told me, "Aaron, little over 3 months ago that was her up there, she was up there, flying directly over a home that was once her's, then my mind drifted off on how sad and hurt or whatever she was feeling up there, sitting in her seat, all alone and heading back into the very troubled world from which she came. At the time I was sick enough to care enough to get so pissed off at planes, almost the whole shaking your fist at God thing, how dare one of those mother f**king planes take my baby away....oooooh I was raging mad once upon a time at those planes!
It's been a long while since planes flying late at night had this kind of an effect on me! Sometimes I wish I hadn't picked to live in a home that is directly underneath the Airports East bound flight paths. Just due to the fact that these planes are flying East to begin with a while back just annoyed me and upset me a little. So planes flying out of the Airport and that are flying Eastward, and are doing so by flying directly over my home, in the past was rough to mentally deal with, for back then I knew that she flew the same route, the same route to leave me, the same route to hurt me and my family and friends, the same route to go back to a life that most normal and regular thinking people would try to escape from ect. ect. ect.
But tonight for some reason the plane thing affected me again, for I know, and what I think bothers me the most about all of this, is that East bound planes flying over are going to places like Denver, Salt Lake City, Reno, Kansas City, Miami, New York, Boston, but deep down inside what get's me the most........is I know that one if not some are flying to Columbus Ohio!
It's been a while since feeling these feelings, I've made some progress, it appears I got a ways to go!
But as my walk was coming to an end, and I grabbed my gate clicker to let myself in through the main security gate, I was curious as to what time I was finishing my walk, the clock of my phone said it was 12:06am, no problem, I'm tired, I'm feeling good, time to get back inside and eat a little something and go to bed. But as I was walking through the parking lot of the property I heard that familiar rumbling roar on the horizon, it was the last and final plane of the night being launched out of Sacramento International Airport. I slowed down to look at it as it came close, as to fly over my home and head Eastward, I had a mental "slip up " moment, for a couple minutes as this plane got closer, I thought back to the early morning of August-4th, I again remembered that my ex-faince boarded a plane and at 12:08am flew the last flight out of the Airport, the same flight schedule as the plane I was watching in the sky tonight, my mind told me, "Aaron, little over 3 months ago that was her up there, she was up there, flying directly over a home that was once her's, then my mind drifted off on how sad and hurt or whatever she was feeling up there, sitting in her seat, all alone and heading back into the very troubled world from which she came. At the time I was sick enough to care enough to get so pissed off at planes, almost the whole shaking your fist at God thing, how dare one of those mother f**king planes take my baby away....oooooh I was raging mad once upon a time at those planes!
It's been a long while since planes flying late at night had this kind of an effect on me! Sometimes I wish I hadn't picked to live in a home that is directly underneath the Airports East bound flight paths. Just due to the fact that these planes are flying East to begin with a while back just annoyed me and upset me a little. So planes flying out of the Airport and that are flying Eastward, and are doing so by flying directly over my home, in the past was rough to mentally deal with, for back then I knew that she flew the same route, the same route to leave me, the same route to hurt me and my family and friends, the same route to go back to a life that most normal and regular thinking people would try to escape from ect. ect. ect.
But tonight for some reason the plane thing affected me again, for I know, and what I think bothers me the most about all of this, is that East bound planes flying over are going to places like Denver, Salt Lake City, Reno, Kansas City, Miami, New York, Boston, but deep down inside what get's me the most........is I know that one if not some are flying to Columbus Ohio!
It's been a while since feeling these feelings, I've made some progress, it appears I got a ways to go!
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