I Still Feel Invisible

I don't know why I'm even writing here. I guess because I just want to be heard and no one is listening to me. I feel like I don't exist.

I'm invisible. 

I'm sick of people telling me "you're not alone" "I understand" "people care". If so where are you after you write me those two or three words? I never hear from you again. I'm so frustrated. 

I don't know what to do anymore. 

I feel like a ghost. NO ONE knows I exist. NO ONE. If I shot myself in the face tomorrow no one would care. People may come on here and write hey I care but I can bet you the police can check my emails and socials a week from now, a month from now, a year from now and there will be no message from no one. 

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