i say i am accepting this

i guess the first step to accepting all this is to say you do, i can verbalize it now even though i think there's still little denial goin on inside my head because at this point i feel way worse on all these meds then i did with just the tremor...  i like to stay informed so have been non stop reading but frankly i am scaring myself so today will not read one PD related thing...i'm confused about so many things but on a positive note think eventually these supportive websites will be a good thing.