I really need a break

I was feeling so good about Friday...the students were great there were no problems...then they had a good weekend and showed up hyper etc...I could have just walked out today. They were not listening, talking all the time, constant banter and challenges....I had one student who threw an item at the Vp when her back was turned. Luckily the Principal was watching through the window at the back of the classroom and backed me up when I discipline the kid. The student did not seem to realize what was wrong with his behaviour.2 MORE days left of this craziness and three more days until we find out. I am trying to keep calm but it is difficult when dealing with such a@*#($ all day...there I said it, they are horrible people...well not all of them. One student could not believe how I handle all the questions and constant neediness...I think that I am so tired that I just let them talk, talk and talk... Today I found out one our teachers just lost her father. She is younger than me so I think that her Dad could not have been over 60.  I can just imagine the void feeling she is experiencing at the moment. I can still remember how the week of my brother's death was like living in a dream like state. Nothing seems real until the pain sinks in...then there is despair and a deep void that does not seem to go away. I guess I have 2 voids...one for Duane and the other for our baby. I just want to feel happy again! I am trying to keep my outlook positive. I think I am going to take browngirl's advice and take time out just for me. I need to discover what God wants me to do instead of me trying to dictate what I need. I am so tried right now I better go to bed...Good Night