I really have a UGH moment

I just wrote a story to Peri here on daily strength, and then after i am finished and decide to send it I look over and realize ...Oh there is a journal...could have done that from the get go instead of beating someone's ear with my worries. That is me lately though...I feel like a dollar short, a day late...things like that. UGH don't even feel like re writing what is bothering me anymore. I just really miss my brother. Of all my siblings me and Lance have been the closest and he can really drive me up a wall sometimes, however he is still my brother and I love him dearly. Can always make me smile even when I am angry with him. I don't know is he is alive or dead right now and that is bothering me so bad not to have answers. This GF of his Sylvia is venomous she is pure evil in my opinion and I fear that something happened because of her or that she knows something about my brother. She keeps texting and giving people different stories which is making me even more suspicious that something is wrong. Why lie you know. I guess I am going to head to bed. I am calling the PO in the morning to see if there is any progress or if they heard something or if they have gotten him already. I pray to God they did. I want him to be safe and sound.
More for tomorrow I guess.