I really hate life sometimes.
Well, for whatever reason, the fast food job never put me on the schedule. They hired me then never let me work, not even once. WTF??? So the job search continues. Application after application after application....
It is SO frustrating and discouraging!
Meanwhile my fiance is a d**k. But what's new, right? He's no longer my fiance.
So yeah, he hasn't relapsed on meth yet, that I'm aware of anyway. But let me tell ya! He is still moody as all Hell. He quit going to counseling because ever since he relapsed that's all she wanted to focus on and she completely forgot the reason he started going in the first place. So he said he was going to go somewhere else and get a new counselor and we were going to go together. So far none of that has happened. His reason.... he got a job dealing cards at a casino. That's pretty freaking good news, right? Oh sure it is. Now we have an income at least, right? Except he gambled his ENTIRE first paycheck away before he even left the freaking building! When he did that he didn't come home for 3 days and I didn't hear a word from him the whole time.
When he got home he was high on pills. He was crying and said how much of a piece of shit he is and I should leave him. I said fine. Then he wanted to try to work it out, so of course I gave him another chance.
And now LOW AND BEHOLD, he is MIA AGAIN!!!!
SERIOUSLY! I AM DONE!!!!
It is SO frustrating and discouraging!
Meanwhile my fiance is a d**k. But what's new, right? He's no longer my fiance.
So yeah, he hasn't relapsed on meth yet, that I'm aware of anyway. But let me tell ya! He is still moody as all Hell. He quit going to counseling because ever since he relapsed that's all she wanted to focus on and she completely forgot the reason he started going in the first place. So he said he was going to go somewhere else and get a new counselor and we were going to go together. So far none of that has happened. His reason.... he got a job dealing cards at a casino. That's pretty freaking good news, right? Oh sure it is. Now we have an income at least, right? Except he gambled his ENTIRE first paycheck away before he even left the freaking building! When he did that he didn't come home for 3 days and I didn't hear a word from him the whole time.
When he got home he was high on pills. He was crying and said how much of a piece of shit he is and I should leave him. I said fine. Then he wanted to try to work it out, so of course I gave him another chance.
And now LOW AND BEHOLD, he is MIA AGAIN!!!!
SERIOUSLY! I AM DONE!!!!
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When he got home he just say I\'m his car all night When I went out there to find out what was wrong he tried to hide a cell phone so I wouldn\'t see it. (His phone that he\'s had broke). I asked him if he used the money I gave him to pay bills to buy it. He said no. I asked where he got the money (because remember he gambled away his whole paycheck). He asked why it mattered since we\'re done. I said whatever and walked away.
He then left for the whole night and most of the next day. His sister wanted to call CPS on him for continually leaving them for days at a time. I told her not to. So her and his mom called his kids\' moms and their coming to get them. For how long, I don\'t know.
We are definitely over, but as of right now neither of us have anywhere to go. He acts like he doesn\'t even care at all while I\'m in so much pain I can\'t even eat.
I feel like he never loved me. Even though I know its the drugs making him like this, it still hurts so bad.