I Played Hookey Today.....
OK so I feel a little guilty about playing hookey today from work. I called my boss early this morning and told her that I didn't feel so great. Which wasn't a TOTAL FIB I didn't sleep very well last night due to the fact that stbx kept texting me last night. NO KATHI I DID NOT RESPOND!!! Don't get your panties in a wad I KEPT NO CONTACT OK. However I did read them. Just the basic how proud he is of me and to keep moving forward in a positive direction. Lets see then there was it makes him happy to see me doing so well with myself and Austin. Then the last one said just keep going and in time I will see this was the best thing for US??? He still has alot of stuff he is working on for HIMSELF but he wants me to RISE UP AND SHINE?????
Guess the bar had alot of specials on tap last night and he struck out with all the skanks too. When I didn't respond to any of them he sent one early this morning that said hope you got my messages last night I was thinking of you and the kids????? Now he NEVER cared if I SHINED when we were together he ALWAYS HAD TO HAVE THE ATTENTION. Plus he was NEVER HAPPY FOR ME FOR ANYTHING HE ALWAYS HAD TO ONE UP ME. For example if I lost 5 pounds he joined a gym so he could lose 10. If I got a raise or promotion then he would land a big job for the business. One time I bought a cheap stationary bike at the swap meet to use at night to help me with getting in shape. Remember I was 100 pounds heavier then, so he went out and bought a $200.00 mountain bike to go riding on the weekends ( without us mind you)
Now when he said " In time you will see that this was the best thing for both of us.' Why " IN TIME" I already know that... seems like he is the one that needs the reality check right. Anyway I have been working 3 schools over the whole summer and now the Preschool Summer Camps are quickly coming to a close and I start Teacher Training next week. I had to put together the whole years lesson plans for music and I was asked to Sub in for Kindergarden until they hire a full time K teacher. I feel like with working from 6:30 am until 6:30 pm all week then spending the weekends planning and getting ready the summer has passed me by. Austin and I didn't get to go anywhere except for a movie here and there and a few fieldtrips. So I just took the day to re-group and focus. We sat on out butts and watched movies and even ordered a PIZZA which I haven't had for months. Then I went up and had a mani - pedi by myself God I love those message chairs.
When I got home Austin was on the phone and as soon as I closed the door I heard Austin say " Mom dad wants to talk to you" I said i'm going in to take a bath honey I will make you dinner real soon. I heard him say " She is going to take a bath Dad maybe she will call you later" Why does he feel the need to tell me how proud he is of me and how wonderful I am and what a great mom I am but, I still don't want to come home because i'm working on stuff for me????? Why doesn't he just work on himself and leave me alone. Meeting on Wed with the Lawyers well my Lawyer he still doesn't have one because he thinks he is smarter than any Lawyer to finish up loose ends. The debt and turn in our Parenting Plan for Austin dividing up Holidays and crap if it was up to Me and Austin he wouldn't have to go at all. I hate that I even have to sit in a room with him with that smug look on his face telling me " Your doing great mama i'm so proud of you" OH SHUT UP RIGHT JUST SHUT YOUR FREAKING STUPID MOUTH!!!!! I know I will get through it i'm just tired of getting through shit I just want to be done!!!!!!
Guess the bar had alot of specials on tap last night and he struck out with all the skanks too. When I didn't respond to any of them he sent one early this morning that said hope you got my messages last night I was thinking of you and the kids????? Now he NEVER cared if I SHINED when we were together he ALWAYS HAD TO HAVE THE ATTENTION. Plus he was NEVER HAPPY FOR ME FOR ANYTHING HE ALWAYS HAD TO ONE UP ME. For example if I lost 5 pounds he joined a gym so he could lose 10. If I got a raise or promotion then he would land a big job for the business. One time I bought a cheap stationary bike at the swap meet to use at night to help me with getting in shape. Remember I was 100 pounds heavier then, so he went out and bought a $200.00 mountain bike to go riding on the weekends ( without us mind you)
Now when he said " In time you will see that this was the best thing for both of us.' Why " IN TIME" I already know that... seems like he is the one that needs the reality check right. Anyway I have been working 3 schools over the whole summer and now the Preschool Summer Camps are quickly coming to a close and I start Teacher Training next week. I had to put together the whole years lesson plans for music and I was asked to Sub in for Kindergarden until they hire a full time K teacher. I feel like with working from 6:30 am until 6:30 pm all week then spending the weekends planning and getting ready the summer has passed me by. Austin and I didn't get to go anywhere except for a movie here and there and a few fieldtrips. So I just took the day to re-group and focus. We sat on out butts and watched movies and even ordered a PIZZA which I haven't had for months. Then I went up and had a mani - pedi by myself God I love those message chairs.
When I got home Austin was on the phone and as soon as I closed the door I heard Austin say " Mom dad wants to talk to you" I said i'm going in to take a bath honey I will make you dinner real soon. I heard him say " She is going to take a bath Dad maybe she will call you later" Why does he feel the need to tell me how proud he is of me and how wonderful I am and what a great mom I am but, I still don't want to come home because i'm working on stuff for me????? Why doesn't he just work on himself and leave me alone. Meeting on Wed with the Lawyers well my Lawyer he still doesn't have one because he thinks he is smarter than any Lawyer to finish up loose ends. The debt and turn in our Parenting Plan for Austin dividing up Holidays and crap if it was up to Me and Austin he wouldn't have to go at all. I hate that I even have to sit in a room with him with that smug look on his face telling me " Your doing great mama i'm so proud of you" OH SHUT UP RIGHT JUST SHUT YOUR FREAKING STUPID MOUTH!!!!! I know I will get through it i'm just tired of getting through shit I just want to be done!!!!!!
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