I NO WORK NO MORE

OK, I had taken a job and was hopeful that it would work even with my health.  I'd not tried working since becoming disabled, so I gave it a shot. 1st week was full-time and I about died .... literally.  Spoke to my boss and she was kind enough to let me try part-time.  Had such a severe episode on Wed. 4-13, I thought I was going to have to call hubby to come get me. Still, it about killed me but wouldn't give up.  This is the point you may feel free to scream at the screen, "STUPID"! and I will totally understand. Finally, I prayed "Lord, if this isn't your will and you know the future, shut the door so it can't be opened and I won't make a mistake of staying." When you are disabled, you're lost.  You're mind is still good but your body is in effect a prison and a cruel one at that, with unending pain, etc.  Your mind wants that job, wants that feeling of accomplishment, wants the knowing that something is being accomplished and you are part of the working world. Well, 04/19/2011, I was let go.  They loved my work but part-time wasn't a possibility as it required full-time.  My body just won't do it...I can't.  At least I now know I am not lazy (I was thinking I was) and truly my body didn't magically get "all better" from not working since 2005. I thank God for slamming the door and as soon as I quit the nose bleed from the door hitting me in the face (big grin), I will rejoice.  He's got something better for me and now is my season for waiting.

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keepingon
keepingon

I know how frustrating this has been for you. But at least you now know your current limits. I say current because Hod could heal you at anytime.
Hope you recuperate and have a Blessed Easter.
mechellebelle
mechellebelle

I feel your pain and my heart goes out to you! I too know all about how the mind wants and the body refuses , frustrating doesnt begin to cover it! Im glad that you got some specific direction from above, as I struggle with it. I am lost at the moment but God does have plans for all of us! Xoxo
bgoodwin44
bgoodwin44

Hi There,

I\'m With You - Tried This Myself...

Worked For Several Weeks As A Customer Service
Back At The Phone Co. -
My Mind Could Handle It..

But My Body Said - \" NO\" !

TAKE CARE
FIC
FIC

Dearest NAN - Yes, God can heal anytime. Now I am trying to get back to my feeling like crap which will be an upgrade from my stupidity and feeling like death. LOL
FIC
FIC

Dearest MECHELLEBELLE - Yes, I am waiting on God\'s plans now and trying to remember my earlier dreams of my youth. Maybe it\'s time to do what my heart has always wanted and tell the rest of the world to back off, I\'m busy being ME. Not God of course, lol, as He says GO you better Johnny on the spot!
FIC
FIC

Dearest BGOODWIN - Yep, ain\'t it weird how people tell you \"mind over matter\" and you can walk on hot coals, etc.? Well, I don\'t know what they take but it ain\'t anything I got a script for! ROFLOL