i need to... wat do u call it ohh yeahh rant and big time

Sooo this day has been absolutely horrible.... really. And I hope that after letting it all out i feel better. I ve noticed lately that im a perfecionist when it comes to my studies. Today I did super bad in my math test totally screwed up time after time after time, I guess i just hate not being able to have the right answer to know what to do. Ive been getting 100% on all of my tests in math i hate the feeling that im not in control I guess it comes from my lifebeing an absolute mess. In my daily life I cant control anything my friends ditching me in friday nights, my mum fighting with my dad, my dad living in miami, all of our savings gone, that ill have to start working to get some money from college. It just becomes to much and i want to feel like im not useless that i can fend for myself. Truth is i cant, if i was left deserted i would die in about 24 hours. My mood swings kill me, I mean one day I go to the gym and do exercise for 2 hours the next i dont even want to go to school. One day im close to crashing point in math class the next im at the movies laughing my ass off. It would be great to be a bit more stable....