I need to vent

No because anything bad happened but I just need to talk.. First thing is-I am too needy.I hate being like this.I have a good life.I have three wonderful children.Of course they sometimes push my buttons or cause heartache but they are mind and I love them dearly.I have a wonderful husband who loves me.I know he does.He doesnt say it (which is part of my being needy because I want him to say it)but I know he does.I know in my heart and soul he would never do anything to intentionally hurt me or cheat on me.Some people may think I am crazy for being so trustworthy but thats what I do believe..But yet even though I feel this way I dont always feel that he loves me the same way that I love him.I dont think he is in love with me.I dont think he is 100% committed to the marriage.I dont think he always stops to think about my needs and wants.And because of this I am hard on him.I get mad/sad and I make things rocky between us.He has learned to ignore my grouchiness and nonsense but I make myself miserable.I have to learn to stop.I have to do for myself sometimes and worry about making me happy..I give 100% to everyone else and 0% to me..I am a full time employee at the clerk of courts office,I am a mother and a wife.Thats my life.It stops there..And I dont always feel appreciated..I dont even know how to put my feelings into words... Last night it hit me..The baby I lost last year would be celebrating his/her birthday this month. I am blessed to have the life I do have.I have a great job,wonderful children,loving family and this place for support with tons of friends I know I can count on.so why sometimes do I feel so alone?