I need to record this..
SO I called my mom this morning and told her that I have decided that I will do whatever it takes to get pregnant by the end of the year. I want it sooooo bad. If I have to take out a loan, play the lottery etc etc I want to try IVF to have a baby. So she sits there and simply says "Well, I wasn't going to tell you this until I saw it come to past, so I simply wrote it down a couple of weeks ago" I was like what?? "She said God spoke to me and told me that my prayer was answered, you would be pregnant in the fall" I was like what!! She said I always believed you would have a baby but God never revealed when... You will conceive in the fall!! My mom is very much a christian. SHe has always been like just chill, it'll happen. While I am losing my freakin mind. She also said now I don't know naturally or IVF, but he said that you will and it'll be a boy!! I am like GOOD GRIEF, so of course I was like Um God this fall or next fall?? My mom just burst out laughing. You are too much! She said I know when God speaks to my heart. I wasn't even thinking about the baby stuff. Anyways, it was like a huge peace flooded my soul. It was like OMG could this be?? SO I thought I would record this conversation. When God grants me my blessing this fall. I want to be elated when it comes to past and I can come back to this journal and be an awe of this.