i need to lose and i am not being good

Hello jornal, hummm. I just watched Amelia's post op video of her tummy tuk wow she looks great. I am so jelous, but then again i didn't do everything i was  supposed to do, so it's my own Fault.  I am going to have to do that 5 day pouch thing to get back on track. I believe that I have lost  5 lbs since my last journal entry i now weigh 192.  5 lbs since August, it sure isn't comming off like it used to. I am discouraged,but i can do this i didn't come this far to give up now. ijust wish it was easy again. no bread. no sweets, meat first then veggies, then fruit. if i stick to that i usually drop a pound, the bread dosn't bother to not have as much as the sweets, I wish they made me sick or dump or something cuz i don't dump for anything, maybe once or twice of that  and i would learn not to eat the bad stuff. well Amelia you keep going u look fabulous, I am not trying to be a beauty queen, I just want to be healthy and get to my goal, actually according to insurance weight charts I should weigh aboutr 150, but I don't think I'll ever see that, maybe burt i doubt it.  well by journal til next time