I need HELP!
What I need to do, I don't do...what I want to do, I can't do...and...what I don't want to do, THAT is what I do!!!
yeah...I am stuck on that...I laid awake last night...thoughts racing through my mind... trying to figure out how to get out of this bottomless pit...and i just keep coming up with the same thing...I need to just do it...but I can't. I need to complete those three tasks that I set up for myself...but I can't. I need to put up last weeks laundry...but I can't. I need to go do laundry...but I can't. I need to go to a recovery meeting tonight...but I can't. This is all stuff that I know I can do...but I just don't have the strength or motivation to do it. GOD! I've been awake since 7:30...just laid in bed trying to convince myself to get up and go get something to eat...I finally did and brought it home to eat...and now I am sitting here after finishing my food trying to muster up the strength to put the clothes away so that I can go do the laundry again today!...but that's it...I'm just sitting here...thinking about doing it...not DOING IT!...God, I don't know what to do!!!
When you don't know what to do...do what you know...till you know what to do!!!
Well I don't know what I know...it used to be prayer...so...maybe I'll try that...
Father God...HELP ME...Thank You. Thank you for today. Thank you for the food that I just ate, and for the food that I will eat later on. Thank you for helping me. Help me, God...Help me to trust you to help me do the things I need to do today. Help me by giving me the strength to do what I have to do regardless of how much I want to do it or not. And help me to cry out to you when I feel overwhelmed, dizzy, weak, nauseated, frustrated, depressed, like a failure...oh dear God of second chances and new beginnings...please help me start over and do all the things I need to do today and in the future to live the life that you want for me. Please God...give me the strength I need to do all these things that need to be done. In your Son's name I pray. Amen.
yeah...I am stuck on that...I laid awake last night...thoughts racing through my mind... trying to figure out how to get out of this bottomless pit...and i just keep coming up with the same thing...I need to just do it...but I can't. I need to complete those three tasks that I set up for myself...but I can't. I need to put up last weeks laundry...but I can't. I need to go do laundry...but I can't. I need to go to a recovery meeting tonight...but I can't. This is all stuff that I know I can do...but I just don't have the strength or motivation to do it. GOD! I've been awake since 7:30...just laid in bed trying to convince myself to get up and go get something to eat...I finally did and brought it home to eat...and now I am sitting here after finishing my food trying to muster up the strength to put the clothes away so that I can go do the laundry again today!...but that's it...I'm just sitting here...thinking about doing it...not DOING IT!...God, I don't know what to do!!!
When you don't know what to do...do what you know...till you know what to do!!!
Well I don't know what I know...it used to be prayer...so...maybe I'll try that...
Father God...HELP ME...Thank You. Thank you for today. Thank you for the food that I just ate, and for the food that I will eat later on. Thank you for helping me. Help me, God...Help me to trust you to help me do the things I need to do today. Help me by giving me the strength to do what I have to do regardless of how much I want to do it or not. And help me to cry out to you when I feel overwhelmed, dizzy, weak, nauseated, frustrated, depressed, like a failure...oh dear God of second chances and new beginnings...please help me start over and do all the things I need to do today and in the future to live the life that you want for me. Please God...give me the strength I need to do all these things that need to be done. In your Son's name I pray. Amen.
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I hope things get easier. You sound very depressed and down. I am apparently not very good at helping with that except to say that I\'ll send a prayer your way, too, to add on top of yours. I tend to procrastinate on things I don\'t want to do or things I\'ve left so long that it\'s hard to get motivated to do them now. I don\'t know that I have any great advice. Sometimes I let myself get distracted to get a break from my thoughts and then it\'s easier. I\'ll do eBay research or play a game on my phone or something. Something about that seems to let me get away from the flood of thoughts about what needs to be done and then sometimes I can do it (later).