I need a rant

Just writing because I really feel like I need a rant and need to let some of these awful feelings out. I hate feeling like this, I feel exhausted...both physically and emotionally of living with RA.I have had RA for 2 years now but still am feeling that it is not fair for me to have it at my age. I am 20 years old...I should be out with my friends...not laying in my bed with an electric blanket to try and relief the pain in my hips.I have RA in my hands, wrists, fingers, elbows, shoulders, knees, hips, ankles and toes so pretty much everywhere and I hate it!I am in tears at the moment whilst writing this!I know I am not the only young person with RA and I wish I could just make this horrid condition just dissapear so that everyone who suffers from RA could be set free from this wicked life.I am completely grateful that I don't have anything worse than RA. I just wish I didn't have RA (as you all probably do the same)I have hit rock bottom with this and am totally fed up with having it!I'm not sure if I am angry or upset about it...I think maybe a bit of both. But surely after 2 years I should have accepted it by now...? Sorry about the rant...just needed to let some of my frustrations out.Lucyxx