I must be alone soon
I thought I could sleep last night with my husband home, but I was wrong. It started when he came home at 1045pm. I hate TV now I just leave it off or listen to music. He as always comes in and turns on some mindless movie. I do not even know the name of it 99% of the time. I asked him five times to change it but no luck. Each time I glanced at the screen it was r***. What kind of sick fing mind would make a sci-fi movie with so much r*** in it. I finally got up and turned the TV off - that did not go to well. Now he’s mad at me. I tried to go to bed with him and actually have sex, but that made it worse. The great pretended ‘O’ yet again, I just lay there listening to him sleep for four hours or more. Crying and remembering. I need to release real bad, but the kids are home from school, and he’s still asleep in the bed. I need to the in the bedroom by my self damn it, it hurts inside I must let it out soon. I have to work tonight and I need to be mentally on top of it. As sucking as I am right now, I know the inmates are going to act an ass too. It’s funny kind of, it’s like a telescope into the mood of the jail, I suck when they suck. Is it truly in the weather? The moon? WTF I just need in my bedroom alone, I am going to explode.
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