I miss you and I wish I could stop
I miss you and I wish I could stop. I'm here at this stupid wedding rehearsal thing for my sisters wedding. I get yelled at for no reason because I just wanted to call a friend for support and get advice from them. I can't stop thinking about you and I want to be with you but I can't. I want to hold you and love you but you won't let me. I feel like crying every time I think of you and I hate that I'm surrounded by all this love and all I think is "love is bullshit." Why can't you just talk to me? Why can't you tell me that you care about me? Because I need you so bad right now and you don't give a flying fuck about me. I miss you and I know I shouldn't.
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So sorry, hang in there. I am learning the hard way too. I\'m in in a situation where she does still talk to me, but it is only to use me to help her through her shit. I hate it when she doesn\'t talk to me, and I hate it more when she does. Yet I can\'t seem to let go. Even if she just says hello, I become tormented as it is a constant reminder of what I\'m losing. I think it\'s best to heal from no contact rather than dragging it out like I am. I know knowing this doesn\'t make it easier. Stay strong. We are here for you. +hugs+
^ He\'s right. Been there, felt that.. it\'s MISERABLE. And, love *is* bullshit. The intense, romantic love that we feel in As, and are lead to believe exists at weddings, is an illusion.
Let go. It will suck, but then it will get easier. Promise!