I miss
This is my reply to a post in the Fibro group. I'm being lazy and doing a copy/paste here with some editing. I tried not to let go of my favorite activities but I could not win as Fibro took me down and calls all the shots. I miss those things and had to grieve the losses, like the death of them. I felt a few years ago that it was the death of me which would make me a zombie, I think. I then focused on writing, guitar and singing and those things were my greatest therapy and brought me much joy. So with the increase in shoulders, arms, hands, fingers pain I was losing the guitar playing. Then got a chronic hoarseness so my joy of singing taken. I played and sang publicly when I could make it out of the house. ahhh Well. It is more than Fibro pain for me, if it were just Fibro I could have managed to continue playing. OK, so now I read until my eyes get too blurred and oh boy they do, write with a Fibro fogged brain and word loss and wrong word usage lol(at it all), it's just nuts! I so miss hiking, exploring and rockhounding. I miss walking my dogs. I still long at times to be cruising across the country in my car seeing new places. I always felt my best on the road. I get dreamy about being around horses, riding fast through the meadows and slower on the trails. I miss the sight and smell of the woods, the leather tack and the horse. ~Sherry
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Sherry, I only wish that we could give you back the things that you love. You have a very tough cross to bear but you do it with a grace and dignity that are inspirational to other. God Bless!
I am so sorry that you have lost music as a means of expression. It is a death to your creative self. The courage with which you face the loss of your outdoor activities is incredible. I so wish I could restore what you have lost.
Thank guys. I didn\'t always carry this cross well or have courage in the face of the constant storm. Took quite awhile. The key is to quit fighting it but accept what I cannot change. Still, I do miss, long and dream at times. : )
I feel your pain Sherry! I too miss all the things I used to love to do. I think losing our creative side is the worst because that\'s how we expressed ourselves. I haven\'t gotten to the point of accepting my loss yet, but you\'re right we need to accept the things we cannot change.
Gentle Hugs, Donna
Donna it is tough alright and not easy at all to finally let go. I pray that you reach that place where there is more peace of mind. Take care.
~Sherry