I mess up yet again

        So today wasa good day. I worked out for 90 min and I ran errands, cleaned, got everything done that I needed to do. I had class but I find out that the class is getting canceled due to lack of students. So, I was really upset, and I wanted to binge, but I didn't. The thoughts were there all night long and at midnight I did binge. I freaking ran to the donut store at 1 am and bought a dozen after binging on chips and bread and yogurt. UGHHHH I feel like suck a failure!! I can't even make it one freaking day without bping.  Also, I think because I was so tired, I could hardly get anything out. Now I have a big ball of food in my stomach, I feel like a fat cow, and I just want to freaking kill myself because I am so tired of this and I am tired of trying so hard, only to fail. I can't even get two days in!!! I feel like no matter what I do, I will always fail. I just can't take it anymore.