I Made It To A Family Gathering
I'm so proud of myself I went to Mike's father's for a Labor Day cookout.I cried alittle to one of my sister-in-laws but not to bad.I had Braden since Friday he had a blast here I took him home after the cookout.His Mom took him to Branson to goof off I bet he was very tired because he played so hard at the cookout. Still trying to work on this house our downstairs is looking alot better I'm so sick of cleaning I cleaned all day and still need to dust and vacuum but theirs always tomorrow.I'll be alone Tuesday I hate being alone it makes me think of things about Justin. If only I had called or went over there. Him not calling me that Wednesday morning should of been a red flag.Oh how I regret that. Justin was a very handsome,smart loving,kind,helpful,true to his friends,very friendly man.I lost alot when I lost him he was my BEST FRIEND.I miss him I've seen a couple of men that looked like Justin from the back my heart would skip a beat. Hope everyone has a good week I'm so proud of myself I put one foot in front of the other and went to spend time with family that took a while for that foot to move and I'm glad it did.Love,jfm24,Vicki
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Good on you! That was a big step forward. I know it sounds trite, but try not to hold onto regrets. We can\'t turn back time and I know in my heart that you did a million and one things right throughout the rest of Justin\'s life. You wouldn\'t have had the wonderful relationship you did if that wasn\'t true. Pat yourself on the back for this step and for all the other achievements you have made. Big hugs, Charlotte. xox
I am proud of you too!
Good for you. You put one foot in front of the other. I\'m sure you were a good Mother to Justin.
Don\'t beat yourself up about the what if\'s...Hugs, Connie
That is great that you were able to go to the outing. Sometimes the anticipation can be so nerve wracking. I\'m so proud of you. You are always there for me and always leave me the sweetest comments on my journals. I hope your day tuesday is a good one.
Remember Justin is still in your heart.
Love ya,
Kelly