I made it through the week
holy hell, I never thought I would. every morning was like an eternity, making myself get out of bed.
I am overcome today with panic about what's going to happen next - will I be strong enough to do IVF? will it even work? will I miscarry again? WILL I EVER HAVE A BABY?
I know these are questions that really have no answer and there's no good reason to even ask them. but I am SICK AND TIRED of the "be positive, this happened for a reason" thing. I know it's true....but my LORD I just want to have sex with my husband and procreate. is that so much to ask?
I am overcome today with panic about what's going to happen next - will I be strong enough to do IVF? will it even work? will I miscarry again? WILL I EVER HAVE A BABY?
I know these are questions that really have no answer and there's no good reason to even ask them. but I am SICK AND TIRED of the "be positive, this happened for a reason" thing. I know it's true....but my LORD I just want to have sex with my husband and procreate. is that so much to ask?
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No that is not too much to ask honey. You have every right to have these feelings, not knowing what is going to happen. It is human. I have never been through exactly what you have but I do know the feeling of will I ever have a child?? You will make it through this, I know you will. You are a very strong person!! :) Please know that you are not alone. (((hugs))))
You will be strong enough, I promise. It comes out of no where! :)
I say screw being positive for a minute and honestly whether things happen for a reason or not doesn\'t make them any easier to deal with. Now I am not saying that I want you to be completely depressed or super negative the rest of your life. But I hope you know its ok to be mad, pissed, furious and feel cheated!!! What you are facing is tough but I know you will come through the other side. You might be a bit bruised and sore but YOU WILL COME OUT STRONGER! And you are going to realize just how strong you are. Its kind of like being stuck in a dark tunnel, its scary, dark, seems never ending, but as long as you keep moving forward each day you will reach the other side.
Hang in there my friend, I am praying that every day you will find a little more peace. XOXO
YES!!! I feel CHEATED. horribly CHEATED. perfect way to put it. i will keep looking for the end of this tunnel. thank you xoxoxo
I\'m so sorry for all your pain. We have all been cheated, and I wish I had some answers or could understand better. This is going to take a long time to get through, and I know the panic of \"what will happen next\" so well and the anxiety of it is overwhelming sometimes. Just keep getting out of bed, keep breathing, keep taking things one day and one moment at a time. I truly believe if we do this we will be ok. Give yourself credit for making it thru the week and getting out of bed, if just for today. I\'m here for you. Sending big, tight hugs!
Girl. Be pissed. You have every right to be!!! We all have days that are worse than others, and that\'s ok. You are not alone, even though I know at times it seems like you are. Know that I\'m thinking about you :)
This happened for a reason is right up there with just relax... We don\'t really know why this happens . I try to convince myself that it happens because the baby wasn\'t healthy.. Maybe I lie to myself but it\'s my therapeutic lie .. I hope you do find the strength to continue fighting. I know its difficult and expensive. It\'s completely unfair . I have no idea where I got this power to press on. Here for you always ..