I made it through
Well, seems I made it through my 4th and 5th steps. It wasn't nearly as bad as I remember it being. Of course, it could have something to do with my sponsor ;) The surprising thing is that I don't want to pick up a bottle afterward! I may just make 60 days yet. For now I only have today and that is day 56. With all I have had going on in my life I would say that is a pretty dang big accomplishment. I am very manic tonight so I am up at 3:21am. Nothing is helping. I have tried meditation, prayer, and even my sleep meds but here I am wide awake. I was going to try to write but I can't seem to stay focused enough to think. I was going to try and do some schoolwork grading but I just can't face that tonight...... Sooooooooooo here I am. I thought that I might as well update my goal while I am awake and in between pacing and moving around the house. For the first time tonight, I actually feel like I might just be able to do this thing. To handle it and move on with my life. That to me is a true miracle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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