I ma not stupid-He is having an affair-why at this time?

My late brother never liked Brad and after this fiasco this morning I am beggining to wonder if he is really worth it.Noone understands that I was 48 when I met him and I was no spring chicken and I do not want to be part of it no more.It has become a weary existance for me and I feel like a robot.All I have been doing is helping him with his rehab and I am losing out.A man is just not worth anymore and it is not worth all of the effort that I am putting it.As for marriage-when it comes to marriage my dear ladies..the man has got the better deal.Where else can he get cheap maid service and to top it off..you are not at all appreciated! I happen to like this house and I am not going to leave.I hope that he does and when he does I am going to get a roommate.I do not need this stress nomore.Even the cats feel it and I look forward to see them everyday not him.I do not love him anymore.I feel used.So let him go with her as far as I care--no matter what I do around here,he is never happy with it or the way that I keep the house.So let him leave.And every place that I have lived with Brad after a few months,he was complaining.Now he is complaining about this house and I refuse to leave this time.A woman is not responsible for your social life,guys.If you do not have any friends..that is your problems..that is not mine.And just because you like the beach,volleyball and surfing..does that mean I have to go and like it too? I hate the beach.I am 60 years old and I spent time at the beach years ago.Now it is time to move on-not to recreate a scene like the 1969 cult classic-That Certain Summer.Everyone in 1969 was surfing then.It was a magical time.It was a time that I will never forget but I have to move on.I am getting sick to death of discussing the 1960s and 1970s.But I do not mine discussing the music as I still play it.As least I had decent music in my day..Some of this music I have never heard of ..Who is Mary J.Blige? What does she do?Some of these people out today..to me..they just are not that good.When we sold the house..my father had 696 records albums and I had over 3,000 singles and I am glad that he shared this with me.And one of my fondest memories that we never be recreated was one I was 12 years in 1959.My father took me and my mother to see Take Me ALong on Broadway and the star of it was Jackie Gleason and I will never forget it.I saw The Great One and Jackie was great and no star today will be as good as he was,including that silly ass of a Tom Cruise.What has he done anyway?