I'm tired of everything under the sun

Dear Journal,
 
I'm tired of everything under the sun.  Yesterday was a bad day.  I was supposed to attend my niece's scholarship ceremony in SC, but I woke up with a headache.  Then, my left hand went numb.  These headaches have wreck havoc on my life.  I won't be missing her high school graduation regardless of how I'm feeling.  I may even have to go the day before, just so I can deal with whatever comes my way.  She said she wasn't disappointed, but I was disappointed in myself.  I want to make it up to her later today, but I'm not sure how I will be feeling since I also suffer from insomnia too & it's 3:37 am EST.  It's a two hour drive to go see her.  Graduation is in two weeks!  I've been looking forward to her next phase in life & I can't believe Auntie is feeling this way!  The devil is ALWAYS attacking me at every corner.  At least, that's how I feel.  This is unacceptable.  I had a MRI & a lumbar puncture, & now my Neurologist is saying that I have extra fluid on my brain which is causing pressure, which he believes is contributing to my migraines.  So, they have started yet another medication called Diamox & it has the worst side effects, that's why my left hand went numb.  Another specialist at that practice, since my doctor is on vacation this week, advised that I take 100mg of vitamin C to decrease the side effects.  This obviously isn't working for me.
I'm really disgusted with the whole entire medical field right now!  I see too many doctors & they can't get on one accord which means I can't get on the same page with my health.  I'm about ready to detox & take myself off ALL of these medications!  Let my God figure it out because obviously, they can't figure anything out.  I have high blood pressure in addition to the migraines, insomnia, & anxiety.  I'm just a hot mess!  Well, I'm tired now, so I will write a little something in a few hours since I don't sleep long even with Ambien.  This life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
Poetically Yours,
 
Ms. PoeticJM