I'm tired of everything under the sun
Dear Journal,
I'm tired of everything under the sun. Yesterday was a bad day. I was supposed to attend my niece's scholarship ceremony in SC, but I woke up with a headache. Then, my left hand went numb. These headaches have wreck havoc on my life. I won't be missing her high school graduation regardless of how I'm feeling. I may even have to go the day before, just so I can deal with whatever comes my way. She said she wasn't disappointed, but I was disappointed in myself. I want to make it up to her later today, but I'm not sure how I will be feeling since I also suffer from insomnia too & it's 3:37 am EST. It's a two hour drive to go see her. Graduation is in two weeks! I've been looking forward to her next phase in life & I can't believe Auntie is feeling this way! The devil is ALWAYS attacking me at every corner. At least, that's how I feel. This is unacceptable. I had a MRI & a lumbar puncture, & now my Neurologist is saying that I have extra fluid on my brain which is causing pressure, which he believes is contributing to my migraines. So, they have started yet another medication called Diamox & it has the worst side effects, that's why my left hand went numb. Another specialist at that practice, since my doctor is on vacation this week, advised that I take 100mg of vitamin C to decrease the side effects. This obviously isn't working for me.
I'm really disgusted with the whole entire medical field right now! I see too many doctors & they can't get on one accord which means I can't get on the same page with my health. I'm about ready to detox & take myself off ALL of these medications! Let my God figure it out because obviously, they can't figure anything out. I have high blood pressure in addition to the migraines, insomnia, & anxiety. I'm just a hot mess! Well, I'm tired now, so I will write a little something in a few hours since I don't sleep long even with Ambien. This life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Poetically Yours,
Ms. PoeticJM
I'm tired of everything under the sun. Yesterday was a bad day. I was supposed to attend my niece's scholarship ceremony in SC, but I woke up with a headache. Then, my left hand went numb. These headaches have wreck havoc on my life. I won't be missing her high school graduation regardless of how I'm feeling. I may even have to go the day before, just so I can deal with whatever comes my way. She said she wasn't disappointed, but I was disappointed in myself. I want to make it up to her later today, but I'm not sure how I will be feeling since I also suffer from insomnia too & it's 3:37 am EST. It's a two hour drive to go see her. Graduation is in two weeks! I've been looking forward to her next phase in life & I can't believe Auntie is feeling this way! The devil is ALWAYS attacking me at every corner. At least, that's how I feel. This is unacceptable. I had a MRI & a lumbar puncture, & now my Neurologist is saying that I have extra fluid on my brain which is causing pressure, which he believes is contributing to my migraines. So, they have started yet another medication called Diamox & it has the worst side effects, that's why my left hand went numb. Another specialist at that practice, since my doctor is on vacation this week, advised that I take 100mg of vitamin C to decrease the side effects. This obviously isn't working for me.
I'm really disgusted with the whole entire medical field right now! I see too many doctors & they can't get on one accord which means I can't get on the same page with my health. I'm about ready to detox & take myself off ALL of these medications! Let my God figure it out because obviously, they can't figure anything out. I have high blood pressure in addition to the migraines, insomnia, & anxiety. I'm just a hot mess! Well, I'm tired now, so I will write a little something in a few hours since I don't sleep long even with Ambien. This life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Poetically Yours,
Ms. PoeticJM
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