I'm Tired

I hurt so bad. But instead it hides deep inside. Oh it doesn't show in front of others. Its not on the surfaces. Its the roots to all the envy, frustration, and anxiety. I water it with more negativity to where it is slowly consuming me from the inside out. The thorns are entangled in my heart where they dig deeper and deeper until it bleeds red with regret. The romantic dance my mind has with my soul is tragic. The mind wins and the soul is now in submission to the mind. Its servant. I feel my chest heave with remorse and sadness every time these tormenting emotions and thoughts arise. It hurts so bad that I cannot function. Sleep is so tempting oh sooo tempting. It lulls that dance to rest. Its another world. Another place to escape. Walking around in my own ambitions and dreams is the only way to escape.