I'm Tired
do you have days when you feel overwhelmed by just being tired ab abnormal tired..that is what I feel tonight,,l
I am reconnecting with cousins who are more like nieces as my cousin was like my sister. One was 13 when we lost my cousin. This afternoon she has bee asking question. She wants to know who her mother was, how she would feel about her black baby. I told her she would love no matter. she was 42 when she died..which brings memories of Ken ..he was 45. I need to tell these kids about their mom. She was smart, brilliant, bright woman with many great ideas. She was my closest friend..she was to me the first young person I lost.i loved her with my whole heart and miss her so much..maybe today she watches over Kenny, I will try to watch over her children..missing you both very much..love forever
I am reconnecting with cousins who are more like nieces as my cousin was like my sister. One was 13 when we lost my cousin. This afternoon she has bee asking question. She wants to know who her mother was, how she would feel about her black baby. I told her she would love no matter. she was 42 when she died..which brings memories of Ken ..he was 45. I need to tell these kids about their mom. She was smart, brilliant, bright woman with many great ideas. She was my closest friend..she was to me the first young person I lost.i loved her with my whole heart and miss her so much..maybe today she watches over Kenny, I will try to watch over her children..missing you both very much..love forever
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Oh yes, my friend, I have many days like that. Days when just washing the dishes feels like climbing Mount Everest!! I\'m so glad to know that I\'m not the only one. Being a \"stand in mom\" for your nieces is a huge privilege! By telling them about their amazing mom, is truly honoring her memory!! You are bringing some sunshine into their lives!
roller coaster emotions... its very tiring... I understand your desire to give your cousins children a sense of who their mother was... I often write stories about Cara because one of my wishes is that my sharing will help her children know she was so much more than the illness which killed her... Cara went through hell trying to heal herself... bipolar and anxiety disorder... that she attempted to \'fix\' with drugs and alcohol... I feel in a way blessed that I knew Cara her whole life and not just those hellish final years... sadly her children were young when she died... so a lot of what they saw were the years when Cara was struggling the most... I am glad for your nieces that they have you... someone who knew and loved their mom... I hope and pray it will help as I hope and pray I can help my grandkids... Hugs for all of you. Elissa
Ah Sandi, I think it is sweet you watch over your cousin\'s children. We all need to look out for each other. Grieving can be exhausting. I am much less tired than I was before my diet. I feel better if I get up and move around and get some things done now. I have my days though, I think we all do.
Thinking about you Sandi. I think it is sweet for you to be watching over your cousin\'s children. I know what you mean about being tired. Nobody really understands but really the way I feel is I am so sick and tired of being tired. Does that make any sense? Big hugs to you My Friend, Nell
Tight hugs, Marlene
The kids who are grown now have heard so many stories about their mom..since we were more like sisters tha any other thing she was my secret person and I was hers. I want them to know how close we were and how caring their mom was. Hopefully we will work out a summer get together. Thanks all