I'm stupid
I just did a phone interview and I couldn't get s simple simple programming question. My mind feels fuzzy. I feel anger, humiliation and dispair. I desperately need a job, I have been unemployed for months and I can't seem to focus enough to just answer technical questions. It's like I'm not good at this type of thinking any more or I have some creeping brain damage. All I can think about is living in the street .... it's like so many people ... out of work, then out of a home. And I feel stupid -- like I've been foolong them all along. I was never any good at this anyway -- why did I chose this as a career?? I'm an idiot.
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You are beating yourself and this is causing you to be stuck in samsara. I am not a new agey kinda person at all, but I find that writing my intentions down and posting them on my fridge helps me. I find that when my mind feels fuzzy it\'s because i\'m not clearing it. We as Americans are barraged at every level with media, internet, t.v., newspapers, traffic, etc. Our minds start to shut down after so much. Writing this I realize that I need to start setting for at least an hour a day and working at clearing my mind with mantras.