I\'m still here
Well, I can't believe it's been over six months since mom's been gone. I feel sometimes that she is still watching over me. I would feel better if my legs would heal. Everyone tells me I should go to the doctor but I'm scared and I don't have the energy and time. I would need to take a cab and that's money I don't need to spend. I guess I'm afraid that the doctor won't be able to help and that I will have taken time off of work for nothing. If it's what I think then the medicine she will give me has a possible side effect of lowering my immune system, I don't need that! I feel that I'm living on borrowed time. I can't do much but keep my faith and hope for the best. I'm trying to be more positive.