I'm so sorry.......

I'm so sorry I haven't written in such a long time.  A lot has happened in the past few months.  I'll try to fill everyone in.   I n january I slipped on the ice at work and completely tore my Labrum in my shoulder .   I have been out of work for almost 3 months. I had surgery on March 18.  That was insane.  I have never had surgery before in my life so I was a bit scared.  I had Lindsey by my side and my best friend in the whole world came up from OKC to be by my side as well.  I could not have asked to more special women in my life for comfort and support.  Love you girls.  The recovery process is still going on but at least I am out of my sling and back at work.  I may only be answering phone and doing light typing but my boss kept calling me asking when I was coming back and that they really missed and needed me.  That felt really nice.  Last thursday was my first day back.  I am so relieved. If I had to spend one more day in that house I was going to scream. I felt like I was a prisoner.  I stared at my car in the driveway those long months crying inside.  I felt like I was in prison.  Life is good now.  I just love my job and look forward to going to work every day.  Is that strange? It's healing slowly and still aches in the bone but I am managing just fine.  What could possibly happen to me while lindsey is taking care of me (even though I can be an ass).  She's the best anyone could ever hope for.  Love you baby!
Treatment is going well.  I am having some stomache issues and I have really seen my appetite go down the shitter.  I am taking my meds each day still.  I will not give up.  I have no more hair around my belly button and my headaches are getting worse.  I fell like I have been run over, the truck backed up over me and ran over me again.  I'm sure a lot of it has to do with my shoulder but I still ache everywhere.  I am trying to spend as much time as possible with my son, Gabe.  It helps me cope with everything that I am going through.  I am tired of the meds and sides but I am over halfway and will beat this.  I am still at a 0 and Doc keeps telling me that my blood work looks great.  I like him so much.  He has always shot straight with me and he actually cares about his patients.  Thats rare these days.
This weekend Gabe, Lindsey and I are going to be celebrating my birthday with family and friends.  I am really looking forward to that.  Gabe and I are going on his very first campout the 14th.  He;s very excited.  I am glad he is following my foot steps with the scouts.  He's making me so proud.  GO GABE!!
Everythign else is......going.  Iam sorry I am a slacker when it comes to writting in my journal. I have been either laid up with sides or destroying myself one day at a time.  I need to start wearing some football pads or something.
Love you all



John, so glad you updated us. LOL you couldn\'t stand being in the house and I couldn\'t stand leaving it ! LOL You sound good and strong with your son and Lindsey. Proud of you. When you are done you will KNOW how strong you are.
Take care my friend.

A belated comment from me....you\'re doing well. Hope your b\'day was pleasant and that you enjoyed the campout with Gabe. I dont think the trucks leave us alone until the end of tx...that has been my experience anyway. I\'m sure mine was a B-double Mac.