I'm so ready!

I had lunch with Jake today. All is well between us. A coworker of mine is giving him bass lessons on Sundays and he was trying to come up with a reason not to go today because the teacher gave him homework last time and he has not done it.  I was quite surprised at this because I know how much Jake loves to play. Then the story that I knew must be there came out. Phil had told Jake two weeks ago to learn the bass part for Freebird. Jake cried when he was telling me about it. I told him it is not a big deal. Just explain to Phil that Freebird was Jeff's funeral song and he will give  another song. We spoke about grief for the first time ever. OPENLY.
 
AGAIN. SOMETIMES I FORGET THAT I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO LOST JEFF.
 
My PJs are ready, my tiara is in the suitcase and I purchased a gift that I don't really want to let go of. I'm a happy girl!

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Robin4
Robin4

Colleen, what a great entry. How wonderful to spend time with Jake and for him to open up about the Freebird song. You are so right. I too forget that I\'m not the only one that lost a loved one. Our children were loved by so many and so many hurt with us. Can\'t wait to see you. Love Robin
AnnM
AnnM

Wonderful....I had had small little conversations with my oldest son about Daren...but I sense that it is just the tip of the iceberg. My daughter and I have had long deep conversations...but not for 2+ years now...I miss her.
And I have missed you! See you soon,
Ann
NoraMc
NoraMc

I play the songs Morgan loved the most, I feel they bring us closer and I know she is there when I play. Please tell Jake to learn it, that could be a piece that brings the most peace to his heart, even if the tears are there when he plays. Nora
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deleted_user

Sometimes in our grief we do not include those whom we love and are grieving also. Sometimes we forget to include them, but that is ok, because the time does come when we are reminded and it\'s usually at that time when we and the other person are ready to talk about our grief. All things in good time. Hope you enjoy the retreat! Truly your friend, BarbaraWawa
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

So glad to hear that the conversations are happening and that you are packing and ready to go. An uplifting entry for a Monday morning and new week filled with endless possibilities. Hugs to you. Joanie
biowoman
biowoman

How wonderful that that you and Jake were able to talk so honestly...he needed that, I am sure. I am so impressed that you have things ready to go to the retreat...you inspire me :) Love you bunches...Karen
KandL
KandL

Colleen, Sounds like you and Jake made a wonderful connection. You both loved Jeff so much. Hugs, Linda
BinkyH
BinkyH

Colleen, I am glad all is well between you and Jake. My son, Jason, is going through a severe depression right now and is going to see a doctor this week. I have to take the time to remember that I do not grieve alone. Hugs, Belinda
CorriesMom
CorriesMom

What a wonderful breakthrough for Jake! Communication and sharing feelings are essential. I\'m sure this was so helpful to Jake ~ just to hear the words out loud. I\'m excited for you as you finalize those preparations for the BIG WEEKEND!

Sending love and excited hugs ~ Debbie
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deleted_user

Glad you and Jake had an open conversation. It is hard to remember we are not alone in this grief. Looking forward to the retreat, though I\'m not packed yet LOL hugs Cathy
deleted_user
deleted_user

I understand so well I forget sometimes that others lost my son too love to you and I will be packing next Thursday lol
deleted_user
deleted_user

It has taken Alex most of the past nearly four years to begin to talk about Evan or even think about him. I think that all the sisters coming to G\'burg will have a wonderful opportunity to talk amongst themselves about their losses. We all did the best we could under the most nightmarish of circumstances. You, my lady, are so much more than you realize and I love you dearly! B
lynette22
lynette22

I\'m so glad Jake\'s talking to you about Jeff, and I\'m always glad when Kyle opens up or allows me to. Much love, and you\'re already packed, goodness is it this weekend or next? You are ready, good job!!
KimRW
KimRW

So glad you & Jake were able to talk. Maybe a door opening for him to talk more freely about Jeff. I can understand him hesitating on playing Freebird. I would cry through it everytime I tried to play it if I were him. You packed already?.. I better get busy! Hugs,Kim