I\'m so drained.....

I'm so drained and a nerveous wreck any more, it doesn't really matter to any one I found that out, or at least its the way I feel. The boys are just way to much to handle, they need some one that can run after them, clean after them, I'm exhausted, its never going to change, never untill I go home to my creator. I'm not suicidal, just wish I would die, ask every night for God just to take me. I know its against the Bible to commit suicide, but this suffering any more is really driving me crazy, every day I live in chronic pain, and I'm tired of it. I'm no good for my self let alone two little boys, and very active ones at that. Freddy to drives me crazy, drives me crazy with housing issue's, what the hell their not releasing him so why drive me nuts, all parole does is play games, whats so dam hard with a yes or no answer????? Oh well complained enough, no one wants to listen.........                                                                           Just Me!